Answers, Letter to Dad

Answers

My soul cries out for answers

To questions which seem so simple

Just be patient I am told

Your being made an example

An example of what? I cry

I’ve done nothing wrong

Just maintain and hang in there

This is just to make you strong

But I don't need more strength

And I have no more patience

For this silliness that they pull

I must want out of this rat race

Haven’t I lost enough

My family my friends, my lover?

Aren’t I tough enough?

Will they still much me farther?

I am so tired now

I just want sweet peace

I just need a little space

I need a safe release.

Letter to Dad

What I have to say to you

S’not been said before

I just wanted you to know

Each day I loved you more

Though we’ve had our differences

I want you to know you are my heart

I just wish that we were closer

Can’t we make a new start

So many is the time

I need you there

To be a daddy

To wipe away my tears

But it always seems

That you didn’t care

That you were too busy

And had no time to share

My dreams have been stolen

The hell I'm afraid of

Is the only I’m living in…

So afraid to love

I thought that that I was ugly

Because of a heart full of shame

A lifetime of heartache

A lifetime of pain

Empty hands

Reaching out

All the silent tears

All the voiceless shouts

Why couldn’t I see

What was right before my eyes

 The love and the pride

And the joy that shined

How much you loved me

And I didn't

 even know

Until it was too late

And to heave you had to go…..

You said

You said that you wanted me

I waited for your call

When it didn’t come, I wondered

Did you really care at all?

You said that you loved me

I believed it to be true

But how I hurt down deep inside

When I didn’t hear from you

You said that you would call

I waited by the phone

Hoping to hear your voice again

Waiting hoping, all alone

Now your waiting by the phone

Waiting for me to call

But, boy, do I have news for you

You’re waiting for nothing at all….

Missing You

Somehow I hoped I’d find you here tonight

Watching the stars flicker above

Knowing that we are destined to be

Forever separated in our love

My hear and soul still fee

The tenderness of your touch

You gave me such love and happiness

I couldn’t believe my luck

But then my luck turned sour

The day you went away

I knew I’d never see your face again

Or hear the words of love you’d gently say

I’d give anything to turn back time

And be with you here tonight

But I guess I’m destined to live alone

Out of mind, out of sigh

I miss you babe

You don’t know how much

The tender way you smiled at me

The gentleness of your touch

So wherever you are tonight

I trust your safe and sound

I hurt so much now that you are gone.

I know that the heavens needed you around.